Tuesday, May 10, 2011

Feeling the loss on Mother's Day

Well my little Avery would be 6 months old today.   Sometimes I wonder whether she would be sitting up or crawling yet,  what her little baby babbling would sound like,  all those little things that would have been so familiar to me by now.   It has been a good day though,  the bad day was mother's day.  Lovely holiday for all you hard working moms out there, but it was just a sad reminder of loss to me. I tried real hard not to show it, but sometimes I just can't fight it.  So I didn't have the best night , but God is always there to comfort and I'm thankful for that.  I wouldn't be this far without God's love,.

I have to say I have an awesome family.  My honey, who feels the pain as much as me, gave me a beautiful card that said
" God speaks through all things good and beautiful, but nowhere is His voice more sweetly heard than in the love shared between mother and child".    and signed it from him and Avery.   It couldn't have been easy for him, but he said..... " you ARE a mom" .   Oh how I love him.
There were lots of tears, but I really do think the tears help.   It's odd I guess, but grieving has to take place, so we can move on.
My sisters gave me a beautiful plant and card... such simple gifts, but they are huge comforts to me.
So even though it made me cry, I am so grateful.  I want my beautiful baby girl to be remembered.


1 comment:

  1. HI Debby...thanks for your sweet comment on my junky wreath. I stopped over to say hi and read this heartfelt post. My heart aches for you...yes, you ARE a mom and your sweet Avery is waiting for you in Heaven. Sending up prayers for you today...blessings, Laurel@chippingwithcharm